Too soon for things.

In the middle of a chemistry exam at University I had a massive panic attack. Heart racing, sweaty, breathless, felt sick panic attack.        I left part way through my exam and went straight to the medical centre on campus to calm down. I had this panic attack because I wasn't ready to... Continue Reading →

Self care. It matters.

I twisted my knee getting off the floor trying to avoid a bloody toy and it's been a bit sore since. So I've seen a physio. Obviously the leg needed to make an appearance for a massage and I pulled up my pant leg to reveal what can only be described as chewbaccas face glued... Continue Reading →

I’m sorry, I’m just…

Dear friends and family. I'm sorry I have been so absent lately. I'm sorry if I've missed your birthdays, your events. If I've flaked last minute to see you, I'm sorry. I see your messages and I go to reply but I'm not sure what to say most of the time. I value our friendship,... Continue Reading →

Those first few days.

Those first few days. Double maternity pad wearing, child bearing Hips ache, belly shakes. Thirsty hungry both of us. Ring the bell, not cause a fuss. Midwife comes, milk the boob. Yellow liquid gold, perfect food. Those first few days. Little man sleepy time. All the time. Midwife says the birth turned out fine. Stitches... Continue Reading →

Relatability. Or not.

I'm not sure I am relatable to you. At all. I'm not sure my posts ring true to anyone. I just ramble. But I ramble honestly. These random things that I write about actually happen. Not made up. For some reason weird things happen. This has been like this for my whole life. A bit... Continue Reading →

No photos on social media.

I'm super super low on iron at the mo so I've been put on iron tablets. Downside is is that they bung you up. So I've had a fair lot of time on the loo. And it's here I've done some reading and pondering... Here is the crux of it; We don't put Lily, photo... Continue Reading →

Acknowledge it.

  I'm scared. I'm scared that it will be similar or worse; I'm scared for the upcoming birth of baby baker two. 3 months to go. The body knows what to do. Baby will arrive when it's ready. Just how it arrives makes me nervous. I'm not going to go into massive details about Lilys... Continue Reading →

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